Today was not a good day for me. It's no secret that I am not a people person. I'd be perfectly content to be left alone with the Voices and no outside distractions. That would be my dream. My reality is that for now I have to work a day job to support my writing habit. For now!
The majority of my day is spent informing people they dialed the wrong number. You would be surprised at the number of people who don't know how to scroll down a web page and select the proper phone number before calling a business. It absolutely irks me to no end for someone to think I work in customer service instead of tech support. I was not put on this earth to serve anyone, especially people masquerading as so-called Christians.
One would think that these church people would stop and think about the image they are projecting before they call a business representing their religious organization. If that's the way Christians treat people then I am damn proud to call myself a Witch.
The Law of Attraction definitely came into play today because the negativity kept brewing every time I answered the phone or got yet another whiney email. Like attracts like. By the time I got home I was frazzled to the point where I gave in to temptation and ordered a pizza. I let other people affect my emotional state.
At least I came away from today learning a valuable lesson. After the very first negative experience this morning I should have called a time out. I should have thrown up my shields and called upon Odessa to do her shit. By the time I did invoke her powers I was so far gone that the only thing that kept me from cracking was our beloved telling her, "Aw, Dess, just back off and let her start swinging."
I gave away my power and that's a big no-no. He's right, at the first sign of stress I should have started swinging. Not literally, just stepping back to reign in my thought and then stepping up to take control of my actions and most importantly reactions.
Yeah, I fucked up. It's not the end of the world. Tomorrow is another day and another chance to get my life back on track. I disavow all negativity and will walk in love and light.
As it is willed, so mote it shall be.