Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Identity by Sheila Deeth

I'm pleased to have one of my fellow Gypsy Shadow authors - Sheila Deeth - visit my blog today...




Who am I?

It’s not an unreasonable question for someone else to ask me, but why don’t I have an answer, and why do I keep asking the question of myself. Who am I?

We’re sitting in a restaurant and a fellow diner wants to know about my husband’s job. But who am I?

We’re meeting at church and someone asks “What do you do?” But who am I?

Or back in the day when I used to take children to school (they’re all grown up), who was I then?

Actually, kids all grown up is part of the problem isn’t it? I was their Mom but now they don’t need a Mom to look after them. So who am I?

Once I was a child trying to decide who to be as I started to grow. Something happened—something that shouldn’t have happened, yet happens far too often—and left me thinking I existed for other people, not for myself. I wonder if I’ve been looking for my identity ever since. Forty years ago—child. Twenty years ago—Mom. And now?

I wrote a novel about a woman searching for identity and she wasn’t me. I know she wasn’t because the voice in my head said so. Perhaps she was my muse. So now I’m writing more and more, and my third ebook’s just come out. My world’s full of characters, all of them asking “Who am I?” as I pour their thoughts and dreams onto the page.

Who am I? Perhaps I’m their muse, and perhaps they’re mine. I’m a writer, and I’m writing for me, though I’m hoping you might like the tale.

Maybe I’ll even get that novel published one day.

Thank you so much Jezebel for inviting me to your blog.



About Flower Child: When Megan miscarries her first pregnancy it feels like the end of everything; instead it’s the start of a curious relationship between the grieving mother and an unborn child who hovers somewhere between ghost and angel. Angela, Megan’s “little angel,” has character and dreams all her own, friends who may or may not be real angels, and a little brother who brings hope to her mother’s world. But Angela’s dream-world has a secret and one day Angela might learn how to be real.

About the author: Sheila Deeth grew up in the UK and has a Bachelors and Masters in mathematics from Cambridge University, England. Now living in the States with her husband and son, she enjoys reading, writing, drawing, telling stories, running a local writers' group, and meeting her neighbors’ dogs on the green.

3 comments:

  1. Thank you so much for inviting me here Jezebel!

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  2. I love the idea of authors being their characters muses. Never thought about that. I'm 63 and I still ask myself, "who am I?"

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  3. Ah, now you've given your age away Mary:) But it's comforting to know other people still ponder the same question.

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